I mentioned before I am broken-hearted. That sounds like a true cliche. Suffice it to say, it does not feel like that in my own life. I know, deep down, that things will start to get better. For the first time in a long time, I am hopeful that tomorrow is a better day.
I love my job. There's that.
Everything else will fall into place over time. This blog used to be my outlet as I navigated the crazy world of endurance sport and completed my first Ironman. Yes, I said first. I will be back again someday.
I return to my blog now in hopes of finding answers to so many of the questions that keep me awake at night. The questions I have are truly fundamental. Does true love exist? Can you ever completely trust anyone? If you give, and give, and give of yourself...will you eventually find yourself with someone who can give in return? How can someone claim they love you, while they cut you deeper than anyone else ever has?
Am I naive to believe in people? To believe in love? To believe that if I unconditionally love, I will be unconditionally loved in return?
Am I being too philosophical?
These next 2 weeks I am really, really busy with work. Traveling this week and all of next...Chicago, LA, NYC, Washington D.C. It will be really, really good to be out on the road and away from Madison. For a million reasons, and 1 big one - it will give me perspective.
Right now, the blog will be a little less about sport, a little more about life. This is just what I need. This is comfort.